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How do you deal with an annoying roommate... 5 weeks before the end of the school year??
I've been letting this go...and I need to just keep doing it.
I guess my question really is.... how do I keep my sanity for 5 more weeks?! haha.
I haven't posted on here in forever. life has changed so much, and so I have I. This is incredible.
Does anyone else still use this?!
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Wow, I haven't updated this thing in FOREVER.
I don't even know what to write about write now.
my mind is going in like 5000 directions.
I think I probably have an ear infection... no cool.
I'm getting used to this... having one of my best friends be a guy. I kind of like it actually.
Christmas is SO close, and I got my bank statement today. Dang... looks like my Christmas shopping is done... :(
I'm SO glad first semester is over. I know how much I'm going to change for next semester. I'm pretty excited about my classes, just not excited about the level of difficulty. ...ugg.
anyway, I really need to go to wal mart and get some ear drops. Adios.
if anyone still reads this  I hope you enjoyed and if you want further update on my life let me know! :)
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[x] You have screamed at an inamnite object for 'hurting' you.
[x] You have ran into a glass/screen door.
[x] You have jumped out of a moving vehicle.
[x]You have thought of something funny and laughed, then people gave you weird looks.
[ ] You have ran into a tree/bush.

so far: 4

[ ] You know that it IS possible to lick your elbow.
[ ] You just tried to lick your elbow.
[ ] You never knew that the Alphabet and Twinkle Twinkle Little Star have the same rhythm.
[ ] You just sang them to make sure.
[x] You have tripped on your shoelace and fallen.
[x] You have choked on your own spit.

so far: 6

[x] You have seen the Matrix and still don't get it.
[x half ] You've never seen the Matrix.
[ ] You type only with two fingers.
[x] You have accidentally caught something on fire.
[x ]You tried to drink out of a straw, but it went into your nose.
[x] You have caught yourself drooling.

so far: 11

[x] You have fallen asleep in class
[x] Sometimes you just stop thinking.
[x] Sometimes when you are telling a story you forget what you were talking about.
[x] People often shake their heads at your storys.
[ ] You are often told to use your "inside voice".

so far: 15

[x] You use your fingers to do simple math.
[x] You have eaten a bug accidently.
[x] You are taking this test when you should be doing something more important.
[x] You have put your clothes on backwards or inside out, and didn't realize it.
[x...today] You've looked all over for something and realized it was in your hand/pocket the whole time.

so far: 20

[ ] You repost bulletins because you are scared that what they say will happen to you if you don't.
[x] You break a lot of things.
[x] you tilt you're head when you're confused.
[x] You have fallen out of your chair before.
[ ] When you're lying in bed, you try to find pictures in the texture on the ceiling.
[x] The word "ew" is used many times a day.
[ ] Your probably going to have to use a calculator to multiply this.

total score =24

96% BLOND!

NOW, take that number and multiply it by 4 and REPOST this as "your total in percent, blond
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Same as my Xana entry...

Well, with the help of my dad, I have come to the realization that I am too shy.
I am too afraid to talk to people, I'm too afraid to ask questions...
I'm not shy when I'm other places, but when I'm at school I just get super reserved.
Why? I hate it! I just want to be able to make friends, and hang out with people.
My dad even said that he wants me to make friends instead of staying home all the time.
It's been so hard for me this year.
I've been trying so hard to kind of play it off cool, but I serioulsy can't take it much longer.
Last semester my classes were full of older people with families, but this semester I have a lot more people my own age. I just am so afraid to talk to them because I'm afraid that they won't like me for who I am. I know that shouldn't matter... but I am begining to have such low self-esteem. I haven't really ever felt like this in my entire life. I've always had friends around me, but now... it's so different. I know that I still have friends, it's just so different when there's no one familiar around to hang out with, or when I can't just call up one of my friends and go to the movies or something.  My dad is right. I need to just talk to peopel and be myself, because people will like me for who I am.  I know this note sounds like I'm going crazy, but I just needed to sort things out.. and this is one of the best ways I can. I don't know if anyone reads this but if anyone does some uplifting words of encouragement would be really helpful. I've got class tomorrow, and my dad gave me a task. haha he's so great.  But anyway...that's all there is to that... I'm a little drained so I'm going to take a nap before I do some more homework.
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What the heck... Okay.. So it is snowing, and it has been since this morning.. we have a lot of snow right now.
How come it can't snow on a day I have classes? seriously, this is crap.

Anyway, on to more important things...
I spent this weekend with my cousin and we were trying to think of baby names for her! :) I'm so very excited about that! I'm still trying to decide what to do about Phili. I am supposed to be going out there to help the youth group with a mission trip, but that is also the same time that my cousins will be here with their husbands and children that I haven't gotten a chance to meet yet. Besides, I won't even know if I can have that week off of work, or if I will be working at camp again. I would like to hope so, but who knows what God has planned for me?!
Another thing--- I got my acceptance letter to Northwestern on Friday! I'm pretty excited about it. I really don't like Iowa Lakes right now, so next year will be wonderful!! I think my parents don't really want me to go there, but hey, it's not up to them. I'm paying for it all. I guess if they want to have a say in it they should offer to pay some of it. (HA!)  I'm going to be in debt up to my neck when I'm done.. With just buying a new car, soon buying a new phone, then paying for at least three more years of school, not just school, but a private christian college. Yikes. I'm freaking a little, but It's not like it's the end of the world. Hopefully I will be able to find a job right after graduation. I told my mom the other day that I'm only going to school for my MRS. haha. I don't think she got it at first, but when she did she just laughed a little... I think she think's im serious. I don't think my parents can actually see me having a real career. Maybe it's beacuse they don't really have real careers, but that shouldn't limit me. Or maybe it's because I don't know for sure what I want to do? Who knows. I'm sure I will do something, it's not like I'm going to be a bum.
I want to start working out again. I did it for a while last semester, but I got so tired of being sore that I just kind of stopped.  I should start again.... I'm going to start again. I love this tape that my mom has from the 80s. It's MTV work out video. It's not too tough, but it's fun to do. Hopefully I can start doing that again.
Anyway, I have rambled on enough. If you actually read all of this you deserve some kind of prize.Too bad I'm too poor to purchase anyone anything. A high five will have to suffice. 
I hope you all enjoy the weather wheve ever you may be!
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Well, the semester has started....and I think I'm in WAY over my head! 
I'm taking Intro to Education...not so bad...except for the 40 hours of in-class obeservation I will have to do.
 Also, Intro to computers...not too bad, the projects might take a while, but nothing I can't handle.
Comp2...shouldn't be bad...just a lot of reading.
Then, 2 Independant Studies, Marriage and Family and History to 1877...
I started watching the videos last night and I went to answer the questions for Marriage and Family
 and the questions were about Individualism and Family Values
and the video was about Culture and the battle between being single or getting married... weird.
 It's the 2nd day of the semester... I should just be giving myself a little time.
ohh yeah.. and Rachel and Joe *some friends of mine) had their baby!
Levi David ...I went and saw him last night,
he's SO little and SO cute!
And, my friend Courteney asked me to be in her wedding in July! *yay*
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I just got home from signing the loan papers.  Hopefully tonight after work I can go up and sign the papers at the dealership and bring home a new car. I'm getting so darn excited!!!
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why I suck...

i went to ask at the bookstore about ISBN numbers.. and they won't give them to me. I told them that was illegal and they said it was against the college policy. So, I have to go take it up with the business office. GRR! Those freaking jerks will give them to my mom but not me..and now my mom won't ask for them because she's being the biggest bitch in the world.
Another reason.
I've been car shopping because my car is a piece of crap. So, i found one.. and now the bank won't give me a loan because I have NO credit, and my paren't can't co-sign because they already have 2 loans out for their business.
Another thing...
I was driving back from being mad at the bookstore and my car just shut off.. not once, twice, three time, more like 24 times. So, I had to call Gramp to come save me, and he was driving my car back to my house while I followed and he said it quit on him too while he was driving. We came to the conclusion that it's not idle-ing. So... now... I have to work at 3 and I have no car. I will be walking to work, and my tennies are in the the car that my dad has in Milford.
My mom called me back because i was going to call her at work and tell her about the college problems and she thought that I was mad at her and dad for not giving me money to do it.. and i told her that wasn't  the case and she got really mad at started yelling at me becasue we're not rich.. and blah blah blah.. then she hung up on me as I was explaining that I handn't called to tell her that.

ohhhhhhhhhh myyyyyyy gooooooosshhhhhh!

as i was writing this.. my dad called.. and he got my loan approved!!! i'm gong to get my new car tonight... holy buckets of crap. hahahah. im still pissed about school though.
I'm going to go reflect on all of this.
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things I don't understand:
-Guys...they're confusing and depressing.
-Colds...my nose is so stuffed
-Spencer, Iowa...completely boring if you have 2 friends here.
-ILCC...my college...enough said.
-my guitar...im beginning to wish it would just play itself.

in 2007...I'm looking forward to:
-finding a new college.
-going to camp again?
-not caring so much about certain things.
-being on my own (kind of)
-seeing (at least) 4 of my cousins new babies!!
-being more outgoing
-deciding what I want to do with my life.
-getting a new car
-making new friends.

What I still can't wait for this year:
Current Mood:
contemplative contemplative
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Oh my goodness...WHY? why is it always that the boys you want to like you dont and the ones you don't want to do?

He just doesn't get it. I dont want to be anymore blunt with him...

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